I think people put way too much emphasis on romantic relationships. Whether it be liking someone, finding a girlfriend, a husband, what have you.

For example, when I broke up with my boyfriend, people didn't know how to treat me. Or they acted as if I was this wounded, broken thing they had to be fragile with. They didn't believe me when I said I was fine.

I even began to feel guilty and I wondered if there was something wrong with me because I was doing okay. Because I felt good. better.

And I understand to some extent. We had a great relationship for two years. So I guess I could see why people think I'm at a great loss. but that's a different story.

The thought that bothers me about all of this, is when did my relationship with this person, this human become more important than a relationship with God? If I were to tell someone that my relationship with God was suffering, they wouldn't be as shell-shocked or disturbed. Why? Is a dating relationship more valuable than a relationship with God?

Honestly, maybe it's because God is always there, but a person isn't as easy to win. But is that really true? Even if it is, it's not justified.

I just have felt a lot lately that there is more pressure, and more concern in life to find a mate than to ever develop the most important relationship. The one that would take care of everything else.

I hate the banality of this post. But I don't know how to write it. I just feel it.

What's the most important thing? What is that people hope for most of all? Let me tell you right now, if you try to find your meaning in life from another person you will be very dissatisfied. I say this as someone who was in love once. And it was wonderful. But it was hard and awful too. And it didn't satisfy me. It didn't fill this empty void in my soul that reopened when I became single again. I actually feel more satisfied with my life now than I did then.